my lost

today...
i lost something really important to me
i don't know what i could have done better..
i thought i could leave..

my eyes are so painful
my tears keep eating up my eyes
my vision so blur
i will stay on till i can't
life isn't fair
i will promise not to betray everything
i am no longer that precious one
i am merely a living ghost
all i can do is be a shadow
a shadow of existence yet non existence
i can only wish...
to wish
that one day...
everything will and can be mine...