i fear...

what i fear to feel and see...
could it be real?
or have i made it too easy for it to be this way
i can feel..
i am just a backup plan
the words in my mind are so loud..
but the questions that i seem to want to ask cannot be sound
i am going away...
i wish you could come with me...
but i can see that you are reluctant
i know where this junction will lead to..
i am just trying my best not to see it
am i just afraid?
wish i can just keep smiling and hope that everything will be alright again...
or am i living a dream again...