by force..

i will try till i have to force myself to give it up
i know what is coming
i cannot face it
i sat down quietly and shed tears
i cannot show up
i don't want to be seen

as long as i can do it happily

i am okay with the hurt that i have to bear
i know i won't last long
i cannot watch it much longer
i know it has come to an end...
give me a chance to see a couple more days...
i know i am a loser...

i can never handle anything right...
that's what you get for living a life of a living ghost...